Need alone down time to survive
threatening circumstances
Need to listen to the hurt, hear
the cries
Regrets I try to forget to leave
behind
I turned a blind eye to the answer
vow to leave doubt out of the
question to my answer
lies survive my lips deny my heart
fears a mishap on the horizon
An angel forsaking our great nation
on the verge of denial
Does Gehinnom exist - a Jew’s purgatory
Refuse to accommodate doubts about
heaven or hell: Gehinnom
Intensification exists without
doubt
Fingertips feel my heartbeat with
passion
the sensation alive in my drive
Pain sears through my womb pain,
rips my soul from a concentration
camp
Arrive at a better nation based on
the assumption
That they do what they want to and
we do what we’re told
Secrets we hold near, they hurt but
they stay there
I deny what we live through
live outside my head in the grip of
a constant illusion
hear my conversations that never
occur
I survive the delusion I live
inside my head
the rich imaginings of what was
said and never was or will be
die and I never said what I meant
to say to you and now I never will
the pain never stops
I keep moving my feet to a beat
only I hear,
I try to help someone hear,
please hear but no one hears but me
Standing alone in a grim bleak
reality, coming and going alone
Solutions flash by and are slashed
off by reality as
I follow the path of Dorothy
unafraid of what proceeds me, lays in wait
in a roughened bush burning by the
side of an elegant brook
in forest of deceit I wander
hearing innocent animals slaughtered
the cries calling out in my head
instead
of a reality frozen in a time
frame
waiting for a way out of the
underflow
I call to every passer by I see
Please, I beg, a hand please, I beg
you don’t hurt me
I’m only a first time
offender
I didn’t mean to raise my
hand,
absolution for the abortion,
please stop the pollution,
I hear the cries of an ancient race
of animals now all dead,
there’s no more of them to kill,
only a lab created animal exists
Please father, a benediction before
I go and leave this universe
Can you give me a calculation of
where you think I’ll be
Father I have sinned, 10 hail
Mary’s and go your way and sin no more
I promise, father I have sinned
Afraid there’s another life waiting
somewhere to find me
Explore, seeking to find my way out
of mischief into
a glance of an inner richer universe
no exsanguination please
Try not to cry but the tears build in
my eyes betray me
Water builds but doesn’t flow, yet
you see me
I explode into another me who is
she?
I don’t know
I didn’t make her
she is me there bubbling beneath
the blood
warm ready to burst forth in flames
fires
burst forth from my mouth like a
dragon breathing fire I
explode into a new me
once more a reinvention of who I
want to be
