I’ve Got Too Much To Do To Constantly Look Out For U
The ACLU needs to look out for U
I can’t do it all, there’s too much on my plate
Events redefine themselves
Replay inside my head
I want to re-possess my thoughts
while I obsess about U &
U wait for me to go out so U can watch porno
Ur best friend at work wrote U up for killing a mouse
For challenging a student who dissed U
In my eyes, she set herself apart
As another Dubble X hoe
The last straw to get U off-track
Ur best friend stabbed U in the back
Her pursuit of a married chocolate-skinned supervisor
Forced her to write a report against U
Lil’ C kept a proprietary view towards U
A subterfuge of friendship when really
All U shared were Ur sexual obsessions
She bragged during our 1st phone conversation that U gave her money
And that she did that to make Ur ex jealous
Lil’ C made it clear to me she could have U if she wanted to
Confident U were all up in her shit
I wanted to ask her Y’d she'd take Ur money if she’s Ur friend
but stayed quiet at Ur unspoken request
U said U had to have one friend @ work
She texted U at 5:30 am, weekend
After weekends – while I shared Ur bed
“R U awake,” she texts eager to share
The lurid details of her most recent sexual conquest
Confides in Mr. Porno-head about her nights of drunken’ love & lust
how she awoke on the bathroom floor in her own vomit
After her pussy was sucked & fucked
Texts U B-4 she falls asleep
R U awake, I kicked them out
Kicks out the dicks who fucked her pussy on the bathroom floor
U know what’s in store
Except for Pernet, her Indian lover
Who is the only one who does what he wants to do with her
And when he’s through fucking her he kicks himself out immediately
Mr. Porno-head is so enticed
Tells U how Ur ex-girlfriend's large breasts excite her
U took vicarious pleasure in her marvelous sexual descriptions
She outlines in detail the various sexual positions
Pernet roughly shoves her into
Tells you she really digs the roughness you see
all the other men R in such awe
they can’t excite her sexually
Mr. Porno head Ur so enticed
U said her motives were platonic
She never lusted after U
never wanted to fuck U - never wanted to be Ur lover
U tell me there’s something repulsive,
dark & ugly beneath her exotic beauty –
Said last time U saw her she draped a silk scarf around Ur neck
Pulling Ur face closer
And when you pulled away and said you had to leave
She said, “let’s take it from the top.”
U pretended nothing was said
Refused to dip Ur sweet dick into her wet hole
I was there beside U in bed the morning she
Called at 6 am after Pernet had left
She saw him on her subway ride with a pure-blooded Indian beauty
Told U she intended to go back to him
U warned her against this
Told her U were disturbed & worried
She’s got so many men
Chillin & waiting to get laid every day at her place
“Yes,” I responded, “I know, U became part of her entourage.”
U laughed, agreed it happened for a minute
“She’s so promiscuous,” U say, U “worry for her safety”
I say “U can’t take care of her 24 – 7, U can’t take care of Urself.”
U continue telling me the story
“She says I use my son as an excuse not to chill with her on the weekend
She told me the elevator man at work threatened to rape her
The maintenance man too,” U worry
U were homesick when she called @ 10:00 pm to have a 25-minute phone conversation
about some Mexican on the train who jerked off to her as she walked by
Mr. Machismo, Ur other alter ego, vowed to protect her
The same way U vowed to protect me
U’d said U’d kill anyone who came near us
Mr. Porno-head Ur so enticed
Her stories R so interesting
So innocent U didn’t see what was crystal clear to me
Until she stabbed U in the back
U said U never saw the knife coming
Mr. Porno-head is in despair
he’s taken flight for a minute
Did she become jealous when U became my Romeo alone
Was it then she became Ur Mercutio instead
U said U never saw the knife coming
Despite Ur many requests that she visit during Ur illness
U kept telling her she should meet me
& she agreed but never came once; I was here
My energy is my essence it’s alive strong - powerful
U feel me burning & I burn U in return
Ouch feel me, U’ve felt the power within
Who else could or would take care of U like that?
I’m the real thing not the fake conqueror of men
Mr. Porno – head is insensate, blind
I memorize Ur face with my eyes
Because it changes instant to instant
I have to recall the many U’s existent
Ur beauty overtakes me
She saw U’d become addicted to me
Already knew I’m addicted to U
U became addicted to my charms
As U stayed within my arms
I’ve become Ur drug of choice
