Sunday, September 09, 2012

It’s ok I said, I've been there too

I understand where you’re coming from
Just show me the dotted line and
I’ll be ready to sign
I promise I’ll make no demands
For alimony or child support
My life’s worth more than you could ever pay
The gun trained on my face
I heard the click
And saw him pull the trigger back
Imagine the surprise on his face when we
Still stood eye to eye 
the bullet jammed in the chamber
My life handed to me on a silver 
platter that day, I understand now
But for the mercy of God 
I’d be dead not only broke
Lucky not to succumb to a bullet that day
I said, “Show me that dotted line 
I know when it’s time to sign and give in
Because I’ll never get nothing from you 
except a hard way to go
You never liked sharing anyway 
so I’m glad to let you know
I’m glad to see you go
I want you to know 
I’m glad you know 
I don’t need you to have my own
I had my own before you were born
no - please don’t interrupt," I said
holding up my open palm,
"You misunderstand.
I said it's ok. Go with your government job 
and all your big benefits.
It’s ok if you refuse to share.
I swear I don’t care. 
I’ll sign it all away to you
as long as you let me go my own way.
I'll sign that dotted line, 
I swear I will!
I’m not giving in to death yet – 
it’s premature to date.
Please don’t make me 
leave my son motherless
Hand me a pen 
I’m willing ready and able to bend
I’ll sign on that dotted line
I absolve you from all your future debts to me
Please let me go by the grace of God
Thank God I’m not dead 
Here I go, I got a pen in my hand 
I’m ready to sign on that dotted line.”
The surprise registered in your lifted brows
as you pulled the trigger
and stared me dead in the eye
no remorse for what you planned to do
"An eye for an eye," you quoted,
"So bang you’re dead, gone in the wink 
of an eye," and you winked at me.
We thought it was for one last time.
Certainly for me I thought this is the last wink I’ll ever see.
Pulled the trigger in the blink of an eye
A gleeful smile on your “no mercy for the bitch face”
A New York City minute changes life
when you saw no bullet had emerged from the chamber
no bullet came clambering through 
no bullet went through me and 
by the mercy of God I still stand here before thee
So let me be me and I’ll allow you to be free of me
Free from all my demands you could no longer stand 
that made you be so cruel to me
Now I’m ready to sign on the dotted line as long as you’ll let me be
Yes I’m ready to sing there’s a song in my heart
Glory Hallelujah I'm so glad I survived
I'm so blessed to be alive
money ain’t mean nothing to me I’ll give it all up to stay alive
I got a song in my heart so glad to be alive