Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Dilemma in Love, Text-versation


He texts that he misses her
Wants to hold her hand and walk
Her where he wants to go
She replies, “I’m here, I’ll come there.
You can see me if you want!”
Receives no text reply back
Seemingly texts disappear into the worldwide web
She’s definitely out of her depths
No communication, she’s perplexed
Feels vexed by how he disses her

No more dinners,
No more talks about art
No more park walks
Insisted on sleeping on her side of bed
Now there’s no more courting
She wonders whom he sees
On his nightly midnight forays
She wonders what happened
Whom he spends his time texting today
Some sweet gal who’s a dime
Gets all your sweet texts instead of I?
Before sex, she saw him thrice weekly
Now post sex she barely sees him at all

Ponders if there’s a correlation
Between his loss of attention and
Someone new on his horizon
He declines to mention
Wonders who he texts instead of her
Midnight he texts, “I miss you,"
Her exclusion proves otherwise

She tries to engage him in text-versation
Sends each text with trepidation
He appears to be on vacation
Surmises she can’t read lies in his eyes
Wonders if she’ll ever find love
That provides compensation for pain and suffering
She doesn’t want to cry
Wants to rise above pettiness
She puts on a happy disguise
Prances on her way,
Evades further speculation

Thursday, April 21, 2016



Have you ever felt the sunshine kiss you tenderly?
Feel sunshine abandon you at dusk for a bright white winter moon
Have you ever been as lonesome as a chained bear baited by dogs
A big black bear with teeth and nails removed, no longer a slayer
Thunder cries but alone you die slowly inside betrayed by bodies
Under bare tree branches, sinister things happen while we lie awake helpless
Is it any wonder I can’t lose these blues

Truth of who loves me is the answer to my unconscious question
Witness my decay, as I age no longer a number I can wave away
Words flow exponentially from a body I no longer recognize
Words witness my decay as I go more into my flow
A little faith goes a long way
The answer to who loves who on the same plate please
Flow more into my goals as easily as I lick an ice cream cone

Have you ever kissed the sunshine, sat there warm and tenderly,
Words precede me, darkness follows light, and my tongue flows flawlessly
Reveals tireless concealed appeals listening to the trombone wail
Bluetry giving life through a brand new litany –
Flowing effortlessly - giving revival to a unified force
Give me your hand, I’ll show you my goal

Push on to bring shit tighter
My tongue stays loose like a rapper in paradise
My body becomes harder for my mind to push through
My tongue more alive than the rest of me
Fear, anticipation and rage blend and fuel me
Speak through a corpse of someone I once knew - I try to make do
Silver dragon enters through these blues

Have you ever kissed the sunshine while walking between the raindrops?
Words flow through my veins as I pray for a universe of peace to delete abuse
Tired of seeing so many hurt animals and folk put through the food chain
World where all that exists are tasteless vegetables from depleted soil
Livestock have no rights; beef and pork render a new underclass
Humans like spoiled cider lacking circumspect
Tired of feeling chagrin 
Tired of being an underclass

Have you ever begged for sunshine while you survived the latest monsoon?
Alone heartbroken seeking love in someone’s smile
Wind whispers, voices set forth
The conglomeration for a powerful new nation
With all old abuses sent to damnation
Have you ever begged for sunshine and felt it slip through your fingertips
While you exclaim, proclaim and explain you’re waiting for the right time
Wait for a future, neglect the present, time is divine,
Resign to a lead line; the stars align in sunshine
Have you ever kissed the sunshine, walked between raindrops?
Sun streams through to touch you one last time

Sunday, April 10, 2016

All Losses Last Forever Or Until You’re Dead

All Losses Last Forever Or Until You’re Dead

I wonder where I went wrong
I wonder where I left my song
Trying to find my luck
Get a big bang for my buck
I thought I had the hang of it
Didn’t know how much I missed him
Till he was gone
I wonder how many times he thought of me
I wonder if I’ll feel sad till I’m dead that I
Didn’t see him before I died
I wonder if he had other loves besides me
I wonder
If he knew I missed him
I wonder if he missed me like I miss him
I wonder
How many people forget to see loved ones
Then they pass away suddenly
I wonder
If you’re lost like me
If we’ll ever be the same
If we’ll ever fit in the same time frame
I wonder if you had as many bad experiences as me
I wonder why some pain doesn’t go away
They say time heals all but it's a lie!

Friday, April 08, 2016

Doggy Love Or Billie's Dog Rescue Blues

Billie’s Dog Rescue Blues:  Bluetry - #8

Billie’s blues on my mind tonight
I’ve morphed into Billie singing my blues to her blues we are one
Your protestations sink into my instrumentals
Everything’s easy to get on the Internet; you can get whatever you want to.

I’m a fool to want you, for heaven’s sake why am I in love, here’s a chance fall in love.

I race up the stairs to face closing doors #1 train, elevated. A second too late. For God’s sake, my breath jagged, voice barely whispers on exhale. A golden red-nosed puppy stands before me, jumps on the bench next to DubbleX. Eye to eye, dilemmas & sadness everywhere.

Dubblex says forget the train roars up the watches drama ensues. The dog shaking, wet & wary, pretty furry, seeking solace and warmth, temperature - 32 degrees. Train pulls in, dog runs for the open doors feels warmth, crevice between the platform & train. I see him go under the train. I grab him by the flesh on his neck; pull him away from the closing door. Another moment stolen from death. The pup whines, returns to the bench. My heart skips a Billie holiday beat.

This revolution will not be televised it will not put the shine back on your teeth. How bout the belt from my bag - I greedily grab it. Pup accepts collar attempts to climb into my arms again.

Kneel down Johnny, heel, his haunches pressed to my thighs, crouched beside him, clinches the blended holiness of earth and sky. Pressed to my chest, his tongue sweeps my neck. 
Paws bleeding raw - ice & sleet on the pavement.
Let’s agree to be in love like a melody. Wet white snow falling huge flakes drop on my face. I can’t go where I want to.

Money you’ve got lots of friends crowding right your door,
but when you’re gone and nothing’s left, they don’t come round no more.

I want to go back when things were changing. Now things are suspended or turning backwards. I don't understand. Race for faith, blood bath, Kent State massacre, more prejudice now then before.

Baby pit follows me whining. I bend to examine torn ragged paws, bloodied from standing in deep salted snow, blizzards outside the station. He covers me with kisses, dutifully remains still a second then jumps on my chest. Here, boy, Here. I crouch down he throws himself in my arms shaking.

Downstairs the token booth clerk says cops are on their way. My heart booms, a gut reaction, not my future. I hold red nose with my make shift collar. He pulls me he’s strong, his attention span like a child’s eye caught by mischief, his shaking visible to everyone. Cops show up, act afraid even when they see him sucking my face. The sgt arrives he doesn’t know what to do. Finally a cage from the station arrives. I take charge, tell them how to put him in there away from my caring arms.

I’m a fool to want you. A red nosed pit bull with tail & ears intact. Will they find a home for him? 
My heart sings collateral let freedom ring, life on a hinge.

Wednesday, April 06, 2016



I mix, match, and blend words
Use verbs to describe
When I write
What the fuck do I know about poetry?
I wonder why it’s not as good as theirs
The ones who are consistently published
And I examine the pile of rejects
I survive on poetry for sustenance
My mind is like a sieve
Thoughts buzz in and out
Been like this for as long as I live
Run through my mind
My mind and my heart intertwined
With appointments and dates a blur
Conversations recalled word for word
As they occur, ground up in a coffee burr
Don’t tell me you don’t remember saying that
I hear your voice clear as day today
Shames surrounds me,
from a tarnished childhood
Like silver needing polish
Live in a secluded fortress
In a palace protecting my soul
Hide away day after day
Like a rash, an allergy that has
No place to go, like a prisoner
Of my own demise
Like unpolished diamond
Glow body and soul
Flow with rhythm
Hidden me emerges in poetry
Courses through my veins
Frees me from my chains