Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Reinvent The Universe ...

Need alone down time
To survive threatening circumstances
Need to listen to the hurt, hear the cries
Regrets I try to forget, leave behind
I turn a blind eye to the answer
Vow to leave doubt out of the question to my answer
Lies survive my lips deny my heart
Fear a mishap on the horizon
An angel forsaking our great nation on the verge of denial
Does Gehinnom exist? - Jew’s purgatory
Refuse to accommodate doubts about heaven or hell:
Intensification exists no doubt
Fingertips feel my heart beat with passion
Sensation alive in my drive
Pain sears through my womb
Pain, rips my soul from a concentration camp
Revive a better nation based on the assumption
That they do what they want to and we do what we’re told
Secrets we hold near, they hurt but they stay there
I deny what we live through
Live outside my head in the grip of a constant illusion
Hear conversations that never occur
Survive the delusion I live inside my head
Rich imaginings of what was said
What never was nor will be
Die and I never said what I meant to say to you and now I never will
The pain never stops
I keep moving my feet to a beat only I hear,
I try to help someone hear,
Please hear but no one hears but me
Standing alone in a grim bleak reality, coming and going alone
Solutions flash by and are slashed off by reality as 
I follow the path of Dorothy unafraid of what precedes me, lays in wait 
In a roughened bush burning by the side of an elegant brook 
In forest of deceit I wander hearing innocent animals slaughtered 
Cries calling out in my head instead 
Reality frozen in a time frame 
Waiting for a way out of the underflow 
I call to every passer by I see
Please, I beg, a hand please, I beg you don’t hurt me 
I’m only a first time offender 
I didn’t mean to raise my hand, 
Absolution for the abortion, 
Please stop the pollution, 
I hear the cries of an ancient race of animals now all dead, 
There’s no more of them to kill, only a lab created animal exists 
Please father, a benediction before I go and leave this universe
Can you give me a calculation of where you think I’ll be?
Father I have sinned, 10 hail Marys and go your way and sin no more 
I promise, father I have sinned
Afraid there’s another life waiting somewhere to find me 
Explore, seeking to find my way out of mischief into a glance of an inner richer universe
No exsanguination please
Try not to cry but the tears build in my eyes betray me
Water builds but doesn’t flow, yet you see me
I explode into another me who is she? 
I don’t know 
I didn’t make her 
She is I bubbling beneath the blood 
Warm ready to burst forth in flames fires 
Burst forth from my mouth like a dragon breathing fire I
Explode into a new me
Once more a reinvention of whom I want to be

Friday, September 11, 2015

I Feel Like Joyce Kilmer Tonight

The sky is falling upon me
So stifled I can barely see
Droplets of rain assuage the pain
Insane in the membrane, refrain
In life itself there is no gain
Kind of like a runaway train
Tremendous shame causes anguish
I wish I had some other dish
I am a fool to fall in love
Duped when someone fits like a glove
I’d love to live a life of bliss
Learn how to dismiss all of this
Not try to fill the emptiness 
Experience true happiness

Thursday, September 03, 2015

I Think I’ve Gone Crazy, Don’t Tell Anyone

The old tell the young
Don’t leave the store unminded
I’ve gone a step further 
Left the store of my mind unminded
My unminded mind is a travesty beyond words
Licorice on my fingertips makes me
Feel like a psychopath
Waiting on a Sabbath never comes
My unminded mind gasps for breath
Resuscitates and recreates words
Paints edible pictures to make you
Get your second wind in my breath
Make you open your liliaceous lips to
Hungrily absorb my sentiments,
Your temperament
Feels my words cry
You see & feel your loneliness
Like you thought you never felt it before
The helpless ones, the children and the hunger
Desires awaken, I’m a word monger
Forget your Oreo cookies and ice cream
Desires die tomorrow along with the wind
They didn’t mind the store of their mind either
I’m not alone in not minding
Unsolicited freedom rings in some country far away
My mind leaves behind
Stores energy of its kind trying to find out & unwind
Another way in or another way out
Of this rabbit maze my world whirls
Whirlpool faze with sheeps in wolf’s clothing
A different design
The I and I goes way 
Beyond the words we know

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