“It’s ok.” I said, “I’ve
been there too
I understand where you’re
coming from.
Just show me the dotted
line and
I’ll be ready to sign,
I promise I’ll make no
demands
for alimony or child
support.
My life’s worth more than
you could ever pay.”
The gun trained on my face
I heard the click,
saw him pull the trigger
back
Imagine the surprise written
in his eyes
when still we stood eye to
eye
bullet jammed in the
chamber
My life handed to me on a
platter that day, I
understand now
But for the mercy of
God
I’d be dead not only broke
Lucky not to succumb to a
bullet that day
I said, “Show me the dotted
line
I know when it’s time give
in and sign
Because I’ll never get
nothing from you
except a hard way to go.
You never liked sharing
anyway
so I’m glad to let you know
I’m glad to see you go
I want you to know
I’m glad you know
I don’t need you to have my
own
I had my own before you
were born
no - please don’t
interrupt," I continued,
holding up my open palm,
"You misunderstand.
Go with your government
job
and all your big benefits.
It’s ok if you refuse to
share.
To care for and love your
children,
I swear it’s o.k.
I’ll sign it all away to
you
As long as you let me go my
own way.
I'll sign that dotted
line,
I swear I will!
I’m not giving in to death
yet –
it’s premature to date.
Please don’t make me
leave my son motherless
Hand me a pen
I’m ready, willing, able to
bend
I’ll sign on that dotted
line
By the grace of God
I absolve you from all future
debts
Please let me go
Thank God I’m not
dead
Here I go, pen in my
hand
I’m ready to sign on that
dotted line.”
The surprise registered in
your lifted brows
as you pulled the trigger
and stared me dead in the
eye
no remorse for what you’d
planned to do
“An eye for an eye,” you
quoted,
“So bang you’re dead, gone
in the wink
of an eye,” and you winked
at me.
On your way out the door,
Certainly I hoped this was
the last wink of yours I’ll ever see.
In the blink of an eye, my
life is worth more than child support
Gleeful smile, no mercy for
the bitch written on your face
A New York City minute
changes life
when you saw no bullet had
emerged from the chamber
no bullet came clambering
through
no bullet rammed through me
By God’s mercy I still
stand here before thee
So let me be me and I’ll
allow you to be free of me
Free from responsibility demands
you could no longer stand
You were so cruel to me
Ready to sign on the dotted
line as long as you’ll let me live
Yes I’m ready to sing
there’s a song in my heart
Glory Hallelujah I'm so
glad I survived
I'm so blessed to be alive
money ain’t mean nothing,
I’ll give it up to stay alive
I got a song in my heart so
glad to be alive
