Moodiness

If only I weren’t lonely

If I could be satisfied

If I didn’t know you

If I believed you wouldn’t have lied

If I could be sure you really tried

If I could take your word

If you didn’t sabotage our love

At every turn

If only I hadn’t been burned

So many times before you

If I only had eyes for you

I know in my heart you were never true

Still can’t seem to stop myself wanting you

Still can’t stop feeling so lonely and blue

Can’t stop wanting to hear the sound of your voice

I gave up on you and me

You left me alone

Felt like a clown for wanting you

For believing your pretenses

For believing you were demure

For our ephemeral dalliance

For our creation,

An Elysian delight

Crushed by epiphany

Crude awakening

To halcyon fantasy

Surreptitious whispers

Feel so down

Feel like a part of you is with me

Feel a need to have you with me

Even if life with you could never be
Dreams survive in my head

Kind of reminds me of If by Rudyard Kipling written in 1943 which is still very valid today.

+Enrico Miguel Thomas

*  Enrico called me "The white female Tupac" which I consider a great compliment!

+Brad Eubanks