I’m a “wanna be”

I’m a “wanna be”

I wanna be graffiti covering walls boldly like Shira and

some old time guy – Crash one –

who painted graffiti on trains

I wanna be classical art like Van-Gogh, Degas and Matisse

Modern like Roy Lichtenstein, Pollach

I wanna be art covered in dead mosquitos

Visions of what we can and should be

Envelop my dreams

I wanna be actress, singer, grand some sports enthusiast

I wanna be poet, writer, Indian girl

Damn 3 percent Indian girl

Don’t you think I know it’s hard to be so many things

All at once, we have to climb high

Be many things all at once

I wanna be means I try every day

To be another me

Media throws so many me’s in my face

Every day I’m like, “Who am I gonna be today

You wanna be me

Try to walk a mile in my shoes

Yes it’s cliché to say but so true

I wanna be Halle Berry, Jenifer Lopez, Marilyn Monroe,

Debbie Reynolds, Beyonce, and Jayne Mansfield

All rolled into one convenient slice of pie

I want to be a Royal Purple Audi 500, Special Pass Auto

I wanna be best of the best, is who I Want To Be

It’s hard to be anyone when mostly everyone

Barely knows who they are today, or tomorrow

Our hearts immune to roars of despair

Controlled by media, the score, blind deaf despair

Back in the day popularly called wanna be’s

Now everyone’s a “wanna be”

Hard to know true, everyone imagines we can be

Who we want to be – nurtured by American dreams,

A society amiss with misfits who all wanna be too

Some few have the means to be more than they are –

I don’t fit in with the Jones, try to fit in

Wherever I can, yeah it’s hard to be a loner

Barely fit in anywhere, if you please

Plus I don’t have the means to fit it in with the Jones

How free would we have to be

To be who we you wanna be today

The controllers say

Free your mind,

I ask can my mind decide my identity?

Try to be, can I be who I want to be today or any day

Happy New Year to you all and to all a good night

Ooooohhhh did ya hear we’re all free

So free that all we need do is free our minds

Be friends with crazy Bob Dylan,

Joni Mitchel and Natalie Merchant

Hobnob with high society

Just a wanna be

Wanna be someone different today?

Will The Real Violetwrites Please Stand Up

For Fat Girls Who Want to Have Fun - I attest to this!

I love putting on wigs.

I love wearing wigs

I love feeling different

like I can choose a new me who I want to be,

a new self when I put on a wig, I feel freer

I don’t know how free I can be

I don’t know if I can ever be me

Because reaching for me

Is only the next reality

Of who I can be where I want to be

Want to be free

More of me shining through the alternative

Psychic reality of desire to be

To make a better me

Emerge from the light

Another new sight

Wigs cant make me a better person

But they make me feel bigger and better

In the moment of a cheating heart

my poetry flows like liquid literally

Each time I wear wigs

I feel I choose a new me I want to be,

a new self, I become because when I put on a wig,

I am freer

I say more because wig or not

I'm a chubby girl having fun wearing a wig

pretending to be someone I'm not

Wearing a wig or not

Wigs let me pretend I am who I want to be

And eventually, I will be me

See, I wrote this on Amazon for a free wig

And it was written by true me,

like with each new wig I choose

I can choose a new me who I want to be,

a new self when I put on a wig, I am freer

I try to be more than I am, bigger than I am

More of me than I am ever to anyone

More me, better bigger,

more confident, prettier, younger,

More precise in being a better me

Who am I

I ask myself every day

Who is the real me

Will the real violetwrites please stand up

Please Please stand up

Are you like me?

I’m the one I claim I’ll never be

I’m the one I try too hard to be

Laughing & crying,

I stand up to try to see who is the real me

I try to be the one I see

the me I own today

is the one I see every day

Hey all - don't you want to see what I get for free?

It is really strange but for about 2 years now, I have been getting stuff for free or almost free, for review. I may actually pay - when I pay - 19 to 99 cents for an item I may have brought anyway. You can check out my actual reviews and some of you may want to write reviews too. You need to be an 

Amazon Prime member and use Amazon and write reviews in order for sellers to begin writing and asking you to do reviews. That is how it happened. I get stuff everyday almost that has to be reviewed. It has turned into a 10 hour to 15 hour weekly gig for which I get paid in stuff. 

Here is a partial list of things I've gotten, sometimes several brands of the same item that I know people will use. I fine it's worth it just to give stuff away to people. 

1.  DVD - R/RW

2.  Wigs

3.  Cat toys

4.   Mouse

5.   Two Wrist Rest for Mouse & Keyboard

6.   Two wigs

7.   3 humidifiers- two are for changing lights and to be used with natural oil scents  

8.   Colored Pencils

9.   Children's toys and art supplies

10. Make ups and brush sets

And tons of other stuff that it is too much to go through. Plus I wrote a new poem inspired by my amazon profile.  It is fun too since I've been homebound and now am recovering from surgery on my foot. Take a look at the link to my profile above and please like some of my ads. 

What is clear is that sellers like my reviews. 

DO YOU REALLY THINK I’M CRAZY?

The electromagnet sitting on the fridge makes me bigger

Carrot juice makes me stronger

Zinfandel makes me grow longer

Broccoli to make muscle mass leaner

I've grown two inches taller since you last saw me

Did I mention ginger burns fat?

I'm 20 pounds thinner in only 2 months.

Ginkgo biloba makes me smarter

All other species of Ginkgophyta extinct

Gingo biloba only one left

Use many herbs to cure my numerous ills

Quicker ills pop up faster they disintegrate

Garlic cures infections inside and out

I'm superwoman, you're a has been

No justice at all.

Need rulers to tell us what to do

Followers need leaders

Like Peter Pan and Benjamin Button

we never grow older

Like Benjamin Button,

every day  grow younger

Soon we won't exist at all

No need to hire anyone for work

Do everything ourselves

Super powers in our brain.

Self-sufficient towers

Of humanity

We"ll be better every day.

Poor, downtrodden humans will survive
Hopefully we'll all finally get what we deserve!

Love Immortalized

What’s your name?

Ten thousand stars up in the sky

Mimic the light in your eyes

What’s your name?

Is it Sammy or Charles?

Or ten thousand names I can’t say

What’s your name?

Ten thousand stars up in the sky

Twinkling bright like the stars in your eyes

I long to feel your arms embrace me

Linger and softly touch my face

Oh it’s too bad, so sad

A thousand stars up in the sky

Created my own demise

Love seeps through my veins

Faster than a rumor through

Through a small town

Love is the valley of my mind’s eye

Can’t make me realize

That giving you my heart is so unwise

Your love is untrue – vaporized

Everyone who criticized you

Was right to warn me

Not to idolize you

To love is to learn

Although my heart yearns

For you baby

You remain taciturn and unconcerned

I cannot mend my broken heart

Everyone told me I was too smart

Tried to tear us apart

I insisted you were my sweetheart

Our love was doomed from the start

Saw you through blinded eyes

Now I realize my heart is so unwise

I DID PHILLIP MARGOLIN REVIEW

Wild Justice (Amanda Jaffe, #1) 
by Phillip Margolin (Goodreads Author) 

Joy Leftow's review 

Aug 05, 2016  ·  edit

liked it

Recommended to Joy by: dunno actually - have read him before ...

Recommended for: mystery lovers

Read from June 26 to 28, 2016 , read count: 1

SPOILERS:
DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ THE BOOK AND MAY READ IT SOMETIME IN THE FUTURE!!!

YOU CAN READ THIS TIDBIT IF YOU KNOW YOU WON'T READ THE BOOK IN THE FUTURE AND - OR - ARE TOTALLY UNINTERESTED IN MYSTERIES. THEN BY ALL MEANS, READ MY SHORT REVIEW.

Read if you like my writing, reviews or styles and you'd like perusing more of my thoughts!

As soon as Tony was on the scene I figured he was the one. Kind of disappointing in that I was right. I kept hoping for some kind of last second Robert Parkers Twist. That didn't happen. I do like Mr. Margolin's poetic style and his word usage. Wild Justice is a page turner. Even though I knew he was serial killer, I kept wanting to see it played out. The characters don't know what I know because I've been reading the story from several points of view. I also read because I wanted to make certain Tony got caught. I liked the last minute - try to escape from being caught scenes. Those caught my attention. 

Please hep me somebody... hep me please - please - please

Ladder of Years 
by Anne Tyler 

Joy Leftow's review

Aug 05, 2016  ·  edit

This novel is amazing.

Recommended for: Everyone, young and old, any age male and female, any age who can read and understand the words.

Read in August, 2016 , read count: 1

I like to read poetic, witty, and unsettling work make to make me consider who I am and where I stand in the lives of people who know me or are close to me. I've read several of Tyler's books and always want to consume more. Her words and the way they flow in "Ladder of Years," feeds my desire to know - to know why I am the being that I am - to know how I betray this I am - and how to consider changing the I of who I am. We can be another I, not the I that we know and are familiar with.
With each day we live - every choice - no matter how meaningless each choice seems, makes a difference in the next step we take. Literally, like children, we create and recreate ourselves every day in different ways and that is what Tyler's emphasis is in her portrayal of Delia.

I read because I want to know. I want to know what other writers write and how they think. I want to be me expressing who I am through my writing. Reading other writers makes me a better writer. I read 75 percent of what I read to enjoy myself. The other 25 percent is to learn various things I want to learn and need to read to learn.

This book exemplifies how much of ourselves we hide, just like Delia. We ignore the things we want to say. We try to avoid hurting others or changing too much so we can stay where we are. And just sometimes, we feel a glimmer of hope and we take that first step to see and explore ourselves. It brings me great pleasure and glee to watch Delia do all the things I want to do. I want to just up and leave my life and start over, just like Delia.

Strangely enough, this review reminds me of the movie I just watched on iTunes, "Bird" directed by Charlie Parker. The movie and the book both gave me thoughts on food. I know it's supposed to be food for thought, yet for me, it is thoughts for food because the food is in the meat of the novel or movie. 

CRAZY IS AS CRAZY DOES!