Dead Flowers

Dead Flowers
 

He carried me to the place of dead flowers

Where I spent my water for liquid gold

He tickled my clitoris with humming bird hands

I tasted curiosity; smell satiated me

Is that my worth, only dead flowers?

© Joy Leftow 1996

Vacation Time

Catskills Cabin Getaway

Babbling brook behind my cabin 

Birds chirp, picking dirt with beaks

A red-breasted robin alights on the ground

Water rushes over stones

Babbling a lost language

Sun shines like diamonds 

Bubbling over running brook

I pick my city head

Strive to reduce daily strain, din

Fallen trees and boughs

Set together like someone put them

Tried to slow the brooks flow,

Make the water flow go slow 

Maybe Sandy threw trees there,

Two years ago

Hear the water roll

Constant sound all around

Creek Sparkles in sun and night

In rain, creek sparkles too

See water fill creek

Hope that Sandy won’t come visit

Again, show her other cheek

Return to the present, beauty surrounds me

Wonder if we can witness beauty with no fear

Lost Love Song

Baby you’re no good, you’re no good, you’re no good,

Baby you’re no good

You snore like a wild boar sleeping winter away

Eyes wide open, pretend you’re awake

Dirty little secrets tucked away

Hide behind waves of nausea

Send me off the deep end

While you snore away

Night and day, night and day, never awake

Snore day and night away

Pretend to be alive while I live the dream

Dream a little dream for me

Break my heart with your insistent sleep

Away your life in a misty gleeful mess

Liking life on the edge

The very thought of you makes me cringe

Life on the edge while searching for a way to hedge

climb the ledge to a new nice ice way

while climatic shards whip my heart into shape

The very thought of you

Brings me to the edge

Breaking up is hard to do

Ah, Ah Ah, Ah Yeah yeah

Yiyaye hehahay, Ah ah

My heart fakes desire like a wind up car

Eat my cake and like it too

Cause breaking up is hard to do

You’re no good, you’re no good, you’re no good

Baby you’re no good

My breaking heart and I agree we were never meant to

You hide behind walls of deceit,

pretend you’re awake when you’re barely alive

I cry, “Baby please, please hear my pleas! Baby please!”

Too smart for our own goods,

we waver endlessly to the beat set before us,

You hide, we glide on angel’s wings

Each day obsessing over beginning, find a new way to start each day
The very thought of you   (fade out)

Dilemma in Love, Text-versation

DILEMMA

He texts that he misses her

Wants to hold her hand and walk

Her where he wants to go

She replies, “I’m here, I’ll come there.

You can see me if you want!”

Receives no text reply back

Seemingly texts disappear into the worldwide web

She’s definitely out of her depths

No communication, she’s perplexed

Feels vexed by how he disses her

No more dinners,

No more talks about art

No more park walks

Insisted on sleeping on her side of bed

Now there’s no more courting

She wonders whom he sees

On his nightly midnight forays

She wonders what happened

Whom he spends his time texting today

Some sweet gal who’s a dime

Gets all your sweet texts instead of I?

Before sex, she saw him thrice weekly

Now post sex she barely sees him at all

Ponders if there’s a correlation

Between his loss of attention and

Someone new on his horizon

He declines to mention

Wonders who he texts instead of her

Midnight he texts, “I miss you,"

Her exclusion proves otherwise

She tries to engage him in text-versation

Sends each text with trepidation

He appears to be on vacation

Surmises she can’t read lies in his eyes

Wonders if she’ll ever find love

That provides compensation for pain and suffering

She doesn’t want to cry

Wants to rise above pettiness

She puts on a happy disguise

Prances on her way,

Evades further speculation

CREATE A UNIVERSE OF PEACE# 2

CREATE A UNIVERSE OF PEACE 2

Have you ever felt the sunshine kiss you tenderly?

Feel sunshine abandon you at dusk for a bright white winter moon

Have you ever been as lonesome as a chained bear baited by dogs

A big black bear with teeth and nails removed, no longer a slayer

Thunder cries but alone you die slowly inside betrayed by bodies

Under bare tree branches, sinister things happen while we lie awake helpless

Is it any wonder I can’t lose these blues

Truth of who loves me is the answer to my unconscious question

Witness my decay, as I age no longer a number I can wave away

Words flow exponentially from a body I no longer recognize

Words witness my decay as I go more into my flow

A little faith goes a long way

The answer to who loves who on the same plate please

Flow more into my goals as easily as I lick an ice cream cone

Have you ever kissed the sunshine, sat there warm and tenderly,

Words precede me, darkness follows light, and my tongue flows flawlessly

Reveals tireless concealed appeals listening to the trombone wail

Bluetry giving life through a brand new litany –

Flowing effortlessly - giving revival to a unified force

Give me your hand, I’ll show you my goal

Push on to bring shit tighter

My tongue stays loose like a rapper in paradise

My body becomes harder for my mind to push through

My tongue more alive than the rest of me

Fear, anticipation and rage blend and fuel me

Speak through a corpse of someone I once knew - I try to make do

Silver dragon enters through these blues

Have you ever kissed the sunshine while walking between the raindrops?

Words flow through my veins as I pray for a universe of peace to delete abuse

Tired of seeing so many hurt animals and folk put through the food chain

World where all that exists are tasteless vegetables from depleted soil

Livestock have no rights; beef and pork render a new underclass

Humans like spoiled cider lacking circumspect

Tired of feeling chagrin 

Tired of being an underclass

Have you ever begged for sunshine while you survived the latest monsoon?

Alone heartbroken seeking love in someone’s smile

Wind whispers, voices set forth

The conglomeration for a powerful new nation

With all old abuses sent to damnation

Have you ever begged for sunshine and felt it slip through your fingertips

While you exclaim, proclaim and explain you’re waiting for the right time

Wait for a future, neglect the present, time is divine,

Resign to a lead line; the stars align in sunshine

Have you ever kissed the sunshine, walked between raindrops?
Sun streams through to touch you one last time