Dilemma in Love, Text-versation

DILEMMA

He texts that he misses her

Wants to hold her hand and walk

Her where he wants to go

She replies, “I’m here, I’ll come there.

You can see me if you want!”

Receives no text reply back

Seemingly texts disappear into the worldwide web

She’s definitely out of her depths

No communication, she’s perplexed

Feels vexed by how he disses her

No more dinners,

No more talks about art

No more park walks

Insisted on sleeping on her side of bed

Now there’s no more courting

She wonders whom he sees

On his nightly midnight forays

She wonders what happened

Whom he spends his time texting today

Some sweet gal who’s a dime

Gets all your sweet texts instead of I?

Before sex, she saw him thrice weekly

Now post sex she barely sees him at all

Ponders if there’s a correlation

Between his loss of attention and

Someone new on his horizon

He declines to mention

Wonders who he texts instead of her

Midnight he texts, “I miss you,"

Her exclusion proves otherwise

She tries to engage him in text-versation

Sends each text with trepidation

He appears to be on vacation

Surmises she can’t read lies in his eyes

Wonders if she’ll ever find love

That provides compensation for pain and suffering

She doesn’t want to cry

Wants to rise above pettiness

She puts on a happy disguise

Prances on her way,

Evades further speculation

CREATE A UNIVERSE OF PEACE# 2

CREATE A UNIVERSE OF PEACE 2

Have you ever felt the sunshine kiss you tenderly?

Feel sunshine abandon you at dusk for a bright white winter moon

Have you ever been as lonesome as a chained bear baited by dogs

A big black bear with teeth and nails removed, no longer a slayer

Thunder cries but alone you die slowly inside betrayed by bodies

Under bare tree branches, sinister things happen while we lie awake helpless

Is it any wonder I can’t lose these blues

Truth of who loves me is the answer to my unconscious question

Witness my decay, as I age no longer a number I can wave away

Words flow exponentially from a body I no longer recognize

Words witness my decay as I go more into my flow

A little faith goes a long way

The answer to who loves who on the same plate please

Flow more into my goals as easily as I lick an ice cream cone

Have you ever kissed the sunshine, sat there warm and tenderly,

Words precede me, darkness follows light, and my tongue flows flawlessly

Reveals tireless concealed appeals listening to the trombone wail

Bluetry giving life through a brand new litany –

Flowing effortlessly - giving revival to a unified force

Give me your hand, I’ll show you my goal

Push on to bring shit tighter

My tongue stays loose like a rapper in paradise

My body becomes harder for my mind to push through

My tongue more alive than the rest of me

Fear, anticipation and rage blend and fuel me

Speak through a corpse of someone I once knew - I try to make do

Silver dragon enters through these blues

Have you ever kissed the sunshine while walking between the raindrops?

Words flow through my veins as I pray for a universe of peace to delete abuse

Tired of seeing so many hurt animals and folk put through the food chain

World where all that exists are tasteless vegetables from depleted soil

Livestock have no rights; beef and pork render a new underclass

Humans like spoiled cider lacking circumspect

Tired of feeling chagrin 

Tired of being an underclass

Have you ever begged for sunshine while you survived the latest monsoon?

Alone heartbroken seeking love in someone’s smile

Wind whispers, voices set forth

The conglomeration for a powerful new nation

With all old abuses sent to damnation

Have you ever begged for sunshine and felt it slip through your fingertips

While you exclaim, proclaim and explain you’re waiting for the right time

Wait for a future, neglect the present, time is divine,

Resign to a lead line; the stars align in sunshine

Have you ever kissed the sunshine, walked between raindrops?
Sun streams through to touch you one last time

All Losses Last Forever Or Until You’re Dead

All Losses Last Forever Or Until You’re Dead

I wonder where I went wrong

I wonder where I left my song

Trying to find my luck

Get a big bang for my buck

I thought I had the hang of it

Didn’t know how much I missed him

Till he was gone

I wonder how many times he thought of me

I wonder if I’ll feel sad till I’m dead that I

Didn’t see him before I died

I wonder if he had other loves besides me

I wonder

If he knew I missed him

I wonder if he missed me like I miss him

I wonder

How many people forget to see loved ones

Then they pass away suddenly

I wonder

If you’re lost like me

If we’ll ever be the same

If we’ll ever fit in the same time frame

I wonder if you had as many bad experiences as me

I wonder why some pain doesn’t go away
They say time heals all but it's a lie!

Doggy Love Or Billie's Dog Rescue Blues

Billie’s Dog Rescue Blues:  Bluetry - #8

Billie’s blues on my mind tonight

I’ve morphed into Billie singing my blues to her blues we are one

Your protestations sink into my instrumentals

Everything’s easy to get on the Internet; you can get whatever you want to.

I’m a fool to want you, for heaven’s sake why am I in love, here’s a chance fall in love.

I race up the stairs to face closing doors #1 train, elevated. A second too late. For God’s sake, my breath jagged, voice barely whispers on exhale. A golden red-nosed puppy stands before me, jumps on the bench next to DubbleX. Eye to eye, dilemmas & sadness everywhere.

Dubblex says forget the train roars up the watches drama ensues. The dog shaking, wet & wary, pretty furry, seeking solace and warmth, temperature - 32 degrees. Train pulls in, dog runs for the open doors feels warmth, crevice between the platform & train. I see him go under the train. I grab him by the flesh on his neck; pull him away from the closing door. Another moment stolen from death. The pup whines, returns to the bench. My heart skips a Billie holiday beat.

This revolution will not be televised it will not put the shine back on your teeth. How bout the belt from my bag - I greedily grab it. Pup accepts collar attempts to climb into my arms again.

Kneel down Johnny, heel, his haunches pressed to my thighs, crouched beside him, clinches the blended holiness of earth and sky. Pressed to my chest, his tongue sweeps my neck. 

Paws bleeding raw - ice & sleet on the pavement.

Let’s agree to be in love like a melody. Wet white snow falling huge flakes drop on my face. I can’t go where I want to.

Money you’ve got lots of friends crowding right your door,

but when you’re gone and nothing’s left, they don’t come round no more.

I want to go back when things were changing. Now things are suspended or turning backwards. I don't understand. Race for faith, blood bath, Kent State massacre, more prejudice now then before.

Baby pit follows me whining. I bend to examine torn ragged paws, bloodied from standing in deep salted snow, blizzards outside the station. He covers me with kisses, dutifully remains still a second then jumps on my chest. Here, boy, Here. I crouch down he throws himself in my arms shaking.

Downstairs the token booth clerk says cops are on their way. My heart booms, a gut reaction, not my future. I hold red nose with my make shift collar. He pulls me he’s strong, his attention span like a child’s eye caught by mischief, his shaking visible to everyone. Cops show up, act afraid even when they see him sucking my face. The sgt arrives he doesn’t know what to do. Finally a cage from the station arrives. I take charge, tell them how to put him in there away from my caring arms.

I’m a fool to want you. A red nosed pit bull with tail & ears intact. Will they find a home for him? 

My heart sings collateral let freedom ring, life on a hinge.

WHAT IS POETRY?

WHAT IS POETRY?

I mix, match, and blend words

Use verbs to describe

When I write

What the fuck do I know about poetry?

I wonder why it’s not as good as theirs

The ones who are consistently published

And I examine the pile of rejects

I survive on poetry for sustenance

My mind is like a sieve

Thoughts buzz in and out

Been like this for as long as I live

Run through my mind

My mind and my heart intertwined

With appointments and dates a blur

Conversations recalled word for word

As they occur, ground up in a coffee burr

Don’t tell me you don’t remember saying that

I hear your voice clear as day today

Shames surrounds me,

from a tarnished childhood

Like silver needing polish

Live in a secluded fortress

In a palace protecting my soul

Hide away day after day

Like a rash, an allergy that has

No place to go, like a prisoner

Of my own demise

Like unpolished diamond

Glow body and soul

Flow with rhythm

Hidden me emerges in poetry

Courses through my veins

Frees me from my chains

CAT HAIR MESS

KITTY CATS STOP SHEDDING

Clean all day and still can’t

Make this mess go away

Pick up here, pick up there,

Pick up everywhere,
Get this urge to purge
Feel a great surge of energy

Vacuum, mop, careful to reach every spot

On the floor, the problem at its core

Is cat hair everywhere, I abhor

Hair all over the floor, my clothes

I can’t bear it anymore

I say a prayer thinking that will help

I swear it seems the more I clean

the more hair spreads around

I declare war and still can’t make a dent

Buy special mops and dusters, I’m spent out

All I can do is vent about it

No matter how frequently I mop and dust,

The cat hair increases instead of decreases

Try to make peace with all the hair

Ask the cats to please cease shedding

But apparently, cats don’t listen

More difficult to get rid of than grease

It’s even in clean clothes

Inside my drawers,

I adore my cats

But they shed on the bed,

Even find cat hairs on my head

Cat hair all over the floor and me

Spend half my day cleaning

The hair builds quickly I confess,

Reappears magically causing me stress

Impossible to make a dent in the mess

After all my efforts to dispossess
The hair remains nonetheless



Author's Note:
Sometimes people here for the first time tell me they are overwhelmed. I thought I'd make a few suggestions for those people on what to read with links.

For anyone here for the first time I recommend these poems below. You can click on each poem to be read the poem.

Spot Of Bleach

Tupelo Honey

Dead Long Ago

Twisted, A Sestina Of Love

I Sing The Blues For You Today

Heroes & Superstars - My Bob Dylan Story (All true too!)

Where Did The Day Go

So What, I’m Fat

I get fat, complacent

I sit on my fat ass

Watched my cats

And some good TV

Sat till I was nutty as a bat out of hell

When one’s in pain – can yell

Or pretend to feel well - do what I did to quell

Sat there, had a chat, ate a latke

Behaved very eclat and got very fat

Embarrassed now to show my fat self

I put myself on the shelf

Being fat is like being accepted to a fraternity

You never asked to belong to

Fatism is allowed, society is

OK to be prejudiced against fatties

I take off my hat to skinnies

Everyone avoids fat people

Like being attacked by plague of gnats

So many pounds, lost and found

Promise to turn over a new leaf

Then I stray from after weigh in

It’s the bane of my existence

Not recognized as true disease

I relay my sorrow, no headway

Not as well known as ADD

I convey my apologies

Think it’s the result of foul play

Each Passover I pray

Over and over again

If only I lose 10 pounds

I’ll be rolling in clover